just as ugly as i remembered

on my way home today from applying to be a school bus driver, i found myself in the horrible town of south hadley and decided to pay a visit to the house where i grew up, or spent a good 9 years of my young life anyway. it was just as ugly as i'd remembered, maybe even more so. the trees help to compensate for the ugliness of the house a little bit but in the end it's just a ramshackle split-level from hell.



visiting was kind of healing. nobody came out of that house or neighboring houses to spit on me or throw rocks at me. everything remained completely quiet. i took a couple pictures and went away. maybe i won't feel completely traumatized by south hadley anymore. but it still is a sucky town any way you look at it. it is no wonder that i fled to the theatre, and then to boarding school, and then to northampton, as soon as was humanly possible.

anyway, i don't think i'm going to wind up being a school bus driver. the whole thing was kind of weird. it took 45 minutes to get to the bus place where everyone meets at 5:30 am before beginning their routes. all the bus drivers were fat and although they looked around my age, they seemed a million times older, making me feel like a 20-year-old. which was ok. but no way am i commuting to do something like that. i'd do it if i could do it in northampton, maybe. if i didn't have to show up at 5:30 am. i am sure i can find some job that starts later in the day. anyway, i think i want to go to massage school and become a masseuse.