this world, this life: wrong venue for me.
a recent back-and-forth on the massage school email list (contains only a few people) incl. my response to a comment and a query, the reaction to my response, and my reaction to that reaction. i left my therapist's office yesterday crying in rhyme, after she'd pointed out the obvious, that there is a time & a place for everything & of course a massage school email list where someone just had a simple question is not the appropriate venue. i said that's the whole problem!!!!!! my creativity does not flow freely in the "appropriate" venues or in the "appropriate" ways, ever. i can't sit down & write a poem for myself in some notebook. things come out when they come out. so yes, i realize it's not ok. i also realize it's who & how i am. and i don't know how to find a place in this world where i can be me. i am in a lot of pain. it's not like war or having my arms blown off or being tortured physically, but this life has been ripping me to shreds from the inside-out. and how i express what i feel or see only serves to make matters that much worse.
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Debbie - Troughing is highly regulated, and even illegal in some states. Upper laminar troughing is usually considered safe if administered by a trained practitioner, I would suggest that you not even consider it; and devote your energies towards your franchise interests. Good Luck,
Rich
Hi, does anyone know if clinic is open Friday the 26th? Have a great Holiday everyone!
Mari
hear ye! hear ye! o come, all ye people
and look up at my fingers, they're forming a steeple!
this a signal from me out to you
that i know exactly just what you can do...
and i'll try not to sound preachy, but be rather useful
to ye all who wonder what days have what number
and oddidities such, so bizarre, we fear question
or beg for more info or ask for suggestion
from someone who knows what they're talking about
no not me, i know nothing but to you i now shout:
try emailing the massage school using the form
that shows on the contact us page as is norm
if you want this alexei to indeed get your message
here is the thing that i think was suggested
to me one fine day when i sat and i wondered
something about the semester which lumbered
t'ward me ever faster, concerning me so
about whom i should pay and just where i should go
to receive this fine bodily education
moving me way way way up there in station
societally speaking, i mean, if you'll stay
with me one moment more while i fumble to say
in less-bizarre wording just what you must do
if you do wish alexei to hear straight from you
the question you pose, and to get a response
it's all in a form and the form, though it wants
more finesse in it's styling its function is true
to the need once created by people like you
who had some odd question 'bout this or 'bout that
which demanded an answer and accurate, that
so go to the contact page, fill in the form
and through wires or waves it will travel through storm
and through hail and through wind, through most thund'rous blaze
right straight to the inbox of alexei levine
who due to his passion for keeping his scene
a smooth-running one that helps people who seem
maybe tensed up or nervous or needing to dream
of a place where they lie down and someone with training
provides them with something most of us could stand gaining:
the feeling of safety and quiet and trust
where breath flows in deep, then flows out as it must
this man named alexei will answer you true
he'll tell you exactly what it is you must do
to responsibly honor your duties, while saving
your safety as most sacred duty remaining
which means he will answer you telling you if
the clinic is opened or if it's a myth
those stories they tell of a holiday massage
only made up for your fears to assuage
and what's that you say, oh you there named richard,
who speaks from afar yet is fairly convicted
of dangers that lurk there 'neath laminar trough
stay away from it please, you shout and you cough
you feel a great danger, liabilities looming
all the while somehow though presuming
you know what alexei, the man, would have said
had he answered same question, you think he'd have read
things the same way as you, but the problem you see
is that you were not present - however there were we
who heard him, on exam day give us this last warning
"be true to the trough," he cried, "this is the dawning...
...of a new age of deep profound tissue massage
and if your clients aches and pains you wish to assuage
i advise you to focus your energies there
in the laminar trough, where no one does dare
to dig deep enough, no not hardly ever
but more pressure there better late then just never."
this advice it was given, by sage it was sung
and then all of you left, there were stockings to be hung
and trees to be decorated for 'tis, you do see?
a holiday time not for both you and me
but for only the people who chance to agree
with this concept oft known as "consensus reality"
this universe, to which i myself don't buy in
is quite popular, still, with most folks and their kin
having learned all their lives that one thing or another
would be there for them when they did what their mother
had told them was that which was needed in life
to be a good person, a husband or wife
or a father or son or a daughter-in-law...
... you see now, though, don't you? there's one big huge flaw
in this vision of life and i'll get to the point now
there's nothing but space 'tween atoms that flow now
'tween places and times, only showing when noticed
and otherwise flitting between worlds where poets
and philosophers, artists, and artisans too,
not so unlike me or like you (or like YOU)
choose to live a life different from how you might know it
a different view with a different perspective
it's out there if you see it, but mostly neglected
walked over, stepped under, and tossed casually aside
while people go shopping with arms open wide
feeling pressure from all over the place and inside
to participate in this southern-style fried
re-teaching and telling of truths (some are lied)
of just what it is that we bought when we buyed.
so here is my holiday greeting for you:
use the form on the website, and to trough please be true
because clients are needing that healing-type touch
that people give feedback, they say it means much
so much indeed does it mean that they run back
straight to the boss-man but he's got a comeback
for just about anything you could dream up
and to all a good night! and now i will shut up.
xoxoxoxoxoxo
jenna
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the only response:
"Wow, Jenna, I read your poem below, you have way to much time on your hands girlfriend!"
and how i responded to that:
"way too much time" is a common misconception, in fact the opposite is true and i find it insulting when people imply that my mode of expression's a waste of good time as i crumble from pressures from out and inside to keep up with the world where i'm forced to reside by those damned laws of physics, all joking aside.
xoxoxo
jenna
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